I'm sorry I haven't been on much, life an all that. I was sick with bronchitis for over 3 weeks for one. I've been trying to improve my financial situation by pet sitting as well. Then I've been doing work on my place and I've been getting ready for when my bestest friend and two of my other friends come to visit me for my birthday. Which is the 27th, btw.

It's kind of weird to me that I'll be 28 in 6 days. I don't feel 28... I feel younger, but then again... I also feel much older. I know that's strange, but that's just how I feel. Physically, for the first time in a LONG time I feel younger, but I've always felt really old in every other way. *shrugs* I can't explain it well though. lol

So yeah.... one other thing.... umm... I have been in contact with someone from HS, other than my best friend. Let's just put it this way.... I've been in love with him since I was 16... he is my first TRUE love.
The thing is, I'm going back to Nashville with Trish, my BF, for Halloween... and I might get to see him for the first time since 2002. I'm so excited, anxious and scared to death all at the same time! Every time I think of him I get this fluttery feeling in my chest and my stomach goes to my throat. I have been having EXTREMELY realistic dreams about him for the past month. So realistic that I wake up from them feeling like they actually happened. I can still smell him and feel his touch when I wake up from them. The scariest part is that some of them have already come true in life... and I've always had premonition dreams. That scares me because of the content of the dreams that HAVEN'T come to pass... yet. They are all sequencial too... *gets goosebumps all over* which is really freaky because that has never happened before.

Also.... Trish told me a lot of things about him from back in HS. She told me that he was in love with me back then and that I made him feel like a little boy. I don't know if he still cares for me or not, but whether he does or doesn't... I NEED to see him, even if it's just once more. *sighs* I know that in all reality we most likely won't get together, but still... I really do wish that we could. Still, wishes hardly ever come true... that why they are called "dreams". Well it doesn't matter if we get together or not, I just want to see him again.

So anyways... that's the quick version of what's been happening... ja!